It’s hard to know that you are moving on. I don’t know how you made everything easy on your part. I guess I expected too much from us. I know my feelings were real despite the distance between us. I was happy with the entire relationship and that I am grateful for. Although admittedly, I was hurt. I was disappointed with how everything ended. But wallowing shouldn’t be prolonged.

And now, I think our story has ended. I will miss you for sure. How I wish these are just trials in our relationship and hope that time and space is all we need. But then again, it’s hard to expect and be disappointed at the end. So I have to agree that things went downhill for us so I could let go.

Good bye my almost lover! Thank you for the good and happy memories we’ve shared.

As I bid goodbye to 2011, I would like to thank those people who became a part of my life. Thank you friends and family for always being there through good times and bad times. Your support has been my inspiration to remain strong in facing life’s challenges. Your smile and laughter brought warmth into my life. Indeed, you have all touched my heart and a blessing to me. Also, thank you for those people who left footprints in my life. People do come and go leaving us with memories, experiences and lessons to learn.

Thank you God for all the blessings you have bestowed on me. Even with the trials I encountered, I learned to see them as a blessing and faced them with courage and faith in YOU. You made me stronger this year. Your gift of inner happiness and peace helped me survive this year.

As 2012 is approaching, I look forward for more blessings to come with FAITH, HOPE and LOVE. New Year…better me! ^_^

Matthew 7:34, “Do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it’s own”.

H A P P Y  N E W  Y E A R ! ! !

Yes, this week has been so stressful and depressing week for me and for my family.

First off, my father was rushed in the hospital due to dizziness. He undergone colonoscopy the next day of his hospital admission due to his health background which is excreting bloody stool for years now. Unfortunately, the most feared came out, he have a rectal mass. It looked malignant. We were advised to have him take a radiation therapy, surgery and chemotherapy. The costs of these were too expensive. My family can’t afford it. And that’s what my family is worried about. We want to help my father. I, for one wants to give the best treatments for him if only we could afford it.

Good thing my work as an OR nurse pave the way to know surgeons and anesthesiologists in our institution. They helped us with what we’re going through for a minimal fee. They’re a blessing! I then realized my purpose why I became an OR nurse despite of not wanting it in the first place. My profession helped my father and my family. Truly God does have plans for us. And I am thankful to Him despite of the storm that we’re facing now.  I know He’s with us in battling this. I just hope we could give these treatments to him as soon as possible so he’ll be totally cured from cancer.

Secondly, the day my father was admitted was also the day my boyfriend and I broke up. I find it unreasonable considering it was just a petty fight. But with the circumstances my family is facing now, I can’t focus dwelling on my personal problem. Though I’m quite hurt but I know I’ll handle this maturely than my previous relationship.